First, a praise... a brother from our ministry is back from a 3 month stint training for missions in North Africa.  I haven't heard the stories yet, but thus far I have gotten to hear what I wanted to, "I am good..." 

I was going to write you guys to tell u that with all my heart fulfilled by GOD and with my life being led for his glory, that I did not see a viable way to really come out with the money I needed.  It was only financial, but I only had two months.  I'm coming out of a circle of which wound around the "American dream.." car, good job, education, a place of my own.  I stepped out of my world and asked myself what I was thinking.  I  was still whole hearted in my approach to missions.  Its most likely of me to do as I did, and look to all of the positive things that I have to look forward to even while staying in America.  In the most honesty, I will admit this, I gave up.  I put my hands in the air and, tired out,  called to GOD, and later thanked him for the rest he had given my heart.  All the while I had thought he put that rest on my heart to settle me with staying in the US and not proceeding to Africa, he was working in the hearts of others who were able to provide a way that would put me in a financialy stable position to go and while I am gone.

I received word yesterday that I would be able to go still.  There were several important people who carried their weight and some of the weight of my burdens as I began to pursue missions.  They were there for what I have said was the "rise and fall..."   I had gotten there, and yet, I had fallen down the same side I went up thinking that it wasn't time to carry on over...   Yesterday and for the morning today I will reaffirm the committment to financial, spiritual and prayerful support from my loved ones.   With their help to begin the  climb again I will be able to say that I am sooooo looking forward to seeing you guys very soon.

WITH CHRIST'S LOVE

~jOie