"Command and teach these things. Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set am example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come devote yourselves to public reading of the Scripture, teaching and preaching..." 1TIMOTHY11-13

We had a wonderful discussion yesterday about 1Timothy2:11-15. Men and woman, boys and girls, I must say that we had good clarification of what this means. It means what it says. That Paul wanted women to learn in quietness and full submission, and that he did not permit a woman to teach or have authority over a man, and that he determined "she must be silent." Honestly this is a call to man to step up. I see Paul telling men that they should have done it back in time, starting with Adam and now Paul will have it no other way. BUT I will not submit myself to any authority of man above the orders called by GOD. This means that I will submit to a man's authority, but never above a call from GOD. If man says to stay behind and be quiet, and the LORD is burdening me to go and shout to the nations with the joy of the LORD than I am going to go and shout to the nations with the joy of the LORD.

For now, I am sure that my job is in ministry. The LORD has shown me that the man should desire and strive for leadership and take authority over his wife, and that the woman is to follow and obey. But the LORD also asked me to lead for a time that is now. He told me others would follow. The LORD showed me that in time someone will come and invite me into a ministry and then I am to go, but that I am not to settle and I am to conitnue leading until then.... no sooner, and no later. Knowing GOD has ultimate authority, and believing in the desires that GOD has given me and that those desires are divinely from GOD, I will contine in leadership, being cautious of any man's authority, and regardless of what man or woman says, I will always try to be submissive to my heavenly Father. You see, I desire for a man's leadership. I desire a hand to hold that will walk with me into ministry, as well as another that will lead me into marriage and a wonderful family, but I know GOD will do as he pleases, and I will not stop him from using me because of what man says. I know what the LORD has asked of me, and I am determined to do it. IT is not an easy road. Its easy to desire the leadership of a man. As a female and at my age I desire to see GODLY men, and see them taking the initiative to do as scripture asks for them to do. This is such a wonderful way for me to start growing into the woman of GOD I desire for myself to be. I know my role, and instead of trying to take on the world and struggle the wars against Satan to reach nations and bring the nations to our Father, I am able to conquer the wordl simply by doing my part. When the time comes to be lead, I will gratefully accept it. For now, I am content knowing I am where I need to be. I always loved being the helper, in all the things that I have ever done in work and ministry. But just because there are leaders over me does not excuse the fact that I have people under me and that GOD is drawing others around me and that I may be the only book they read or the only one they trust and believe. Realtionships that are made and then bonded by the power of the Holy Spirit is something GOD does. Holiness in any relationship depends on GOD's doing, and nothing of mine. I will pray to GOD that he continues to unite me in relationships that are in the Spirit and where I am used to lead others to Christ. If they follow, I will lead. I will teach them when they come, I will lead them in growing with our father, and I vow that I will never turn them away. I will never be talked down from a leadership position just because I am a woman. I will always lead, follow, teach, preach, and pray as designated and commanded by GOD....wherever, whenever, and however.

But men, my brothers,  know that I await you to step up. I await you to dwell in the LORD and HIS teachings so that there aren't as many women having to take things over on their own simply so the work can be done. GOD gives us jobs to do. They are the LORDS work. The LORD has chosen us to do his work, but if we will not do it he WILL find someone else. GOD is ging to get his work done! SO men, accept your job, and fight to maintain it. Get the work done that the LORD has called you to do. Step up to the challenges that conform you to being the GODLY men that women like myself desire to follow. LEAD us my brothers...

Thanks be to GOD for the men who have stepped up to the call already... For you I am so thanksful!