"getting from there to here.  It's been a long time, but my time is finally near.  And I see my dreams come alive at last... its not gonna hold me down this time, no its not gonna hold me down.  'Cause I got FAITH of the heart, and noones gonna bend or break me.  I've got faith to believe, that I can do anything..."

I have been home for awhile now,  and now it is starting to feel as if I never left and went to Africa.  I tried the least possible to have to live in this society here.  I kinda sheltered myself and felt it a bit difficult to get through the day.  I am seeking GOD and he is showing me things in a different light, one not as bright as usual.  He is telling me GO, but not being specific where.  He is showing me of things to do and things that will happen, and yet this time he is not giving me an idea when this will be done.  There is work he has asked of me to finish and yet I cannot figure out how to do it, I dunno even where to start!

While I was in South Africa my heart was burdened for the entire world.  GOD g ave me some visions that I could not have expected for the Middle East, China, and other countries throughout Africa.    I asked GOD to tell me the future.  My heart was burdened and I could not understand why and so I asked him to show me what ultimately he was leading me to, what I was working towards...   Almost immediately he showed me Islamic nations, wartorn countries, house churches<<< (the biggest surprise).  I ask him when and he shows me summer time. I ask him for oppurtunity to affirm this, and he has given it to me.   GOD spoke to me that I am not to settle. He told me that there wil be someone, already with a ministry established, who is going to come and invite me in and I am to follow.  Until then, the LORD said to me, I am to continue leading and others will follow.   DO NOT SETTLE... I have searched the LORD deeper and deeper for more undesrtanding and HE has given it to me... but I see nothing further. I am walking by faith not by site... but in a different way.  This time, I know I am going the right way, but where I am going and what precisely I am walking through, I am totally blind of.  I know the LORD desires it this way.    I use to think that it was not enough.  Not enough to want to go into these nations where there is so much hopelessness among the people, and to the world, and simply live amongst them and be there to pray in the name of Jesus... but simply, when all is said and done, this is how I want to change the lives of the people in this world.  I want to pray with them in the name of Jesus Christ.   It seems too simple, not worth going around the world, risking my life?  Oh, but I know that the power in doing this is going to make some serious change.

This entire time I have been home I have been stepping forward and taking the inititative to what needs to be done to get going... to hurry on up and do what I have to do to allow the LORD to clear a path to HIS people.  The ones in the nations he has spoken to me about...   This is a discovery time in my life.  A time where I am testing the desires, visions, and words the LORD has given to me.  I am seeking out his people, and I am finding where my place is... I am keeping my eyes open for the LORDS purpose and where the places in his purpose that I belong.  I am watching the LORD step into my life and use me in all situations.   THere have been moments where I was sure I was not where I was suppose to be, and yet I watched the LORD redeem me and use me to bring GLORY to HIM through those moments.    I see how my life has just completely been changed and how I am just walking with the LORD no matter what... I am there.  I am holding my Father's hand and he is not letting me go easily.    I am accepting that I will not always be where he tries to lead me, but I see how even in the worst of times HES got a hold of me.

I wish I could open up more how the LORD is working.  But I cannot.  Not at this time.  I anitcipate when I will be able to share what GOD is doing in my life.   

I pray everyone is doing well.  I miss you TEAM AFRICA!!!!!!!   Special-K!

I love you guys!!!

PS.  PLEASE LOOK FOR THE ITEMS THAT GOT MIXED UP bible, Daytona Beach purpose hoodie, grey thermal hoodie with disposable camera in pocket (that prolly stinks cuz its from our team weekend in the bush), and a Daytona 5K tshirt........... AND my wonderful coverless Bible.

~joie