alright... there was an entirely different point that I was trying to make last entry that I wanna clear up and make now.

Screm and shout was the title to my last entry.  The introduction was leading to what took place today...final flight arrangements to see some special people and then the final outbound, one way, no return flight to  GA!!!!!!    Now, I needed money very desperately in the beginning on the year.  I am known for being up on my tax forms. I have them done and ready before they are even allowed to be submitted and money back before some people even finish getting their 1040s.   Somehow I got charged waaayyy to much to do my taxes online ( and I am looking into this), but eventil, there is 500 dollars on its way to me.  This has been delayed since January for an error that I studied my tax forms to find over and over again, but could not!  Now, when I'd say I need it the most, for the most wonderful thing to be brought to my life, it is on its way!

  My work situation has not be lightened.  It is still the same and I can't say that the LORD hasn't had to walk with me a bit more closely and hang on to me a bit more tightly as the weight of it was bringing me down.  This 500 dollars is a blessing.  It is peace in my heart.  I had not one penny left after I payed some final expenses before I go, and this will give a bit of security.

Things are falling into place.  But had I sat back and thought the LORD was going to work this on his own without my help, I would have been severely disappointed.  The work I have been used for is more than ever before in my life.  The burdens have been sweet and some have raged bitterly on my tongue.  There has been some very tired, somber, long days.  

The little things are raping at my heart.  I choose not to fight them, because they are seeking the joy rather than the worry in this endevour.  I caught the moon rise as I pulled out of the parking lot last night with a friend.  THe red sky always captures my heart and breath for a moment.  How would I go a day without being able to see the glory and beauty revealed in the simple wonderous things in the super natural creations from GOD... the moon, the sun, the s tars, the ocean...   The breeze blows my hair around and I close my eyes and imagine the breeze in Africa.   I sit inside a coffee shop talking to a group of people and reading a magazine and I find myself in my own little world wondering of a time where I will be outside or in an abode in Africa sitting with family or friends reading the bible.  I am get off dreaming of how different the moon and stars will shine down... I wanna dance around when I get there, on soil that has never been but a thought away...turned into a dream...turned into a passion... finaly turned into something real.

So my heart is open.  Here the words GOD has written across it pour out.  It happens more often now.  I am happy for this.    No longer "
I will go LORD,"  but, "
I am on my way dear GOD!"